Update on My Progressively Eventful Life
Posted on August 21, 2013
It’s been a while. Is that an understatement? No, it’s really been a while since I have connected with you here. The last time I penned a few lines I expressed my anxiety regarding an impending interview to get into a teacher training course. I requested your prayers and well wishes and guess what, I got in!!! Needless to say I did make a bigger deal out of it than it really was, I realize. We went over my application, I was tested on a few teaching related scenarios, he gave me some tips, but in short I got accepted. Fifty long minutes of grilling on Skype but I got in.
Now the nerves are attacking me again!
Since I got accepted to the course I’ve been completely busy with a thirty page, fifty question Pre-course Task which reminded me of how long I’ve been out of school. Amidst all of that, life happened and a past health issue reared its ugly face. It only got worse just as I was given an online Grammar Course to take to prepare me for the teacher training. Boy was that a reality check for me! It may just be me but I don’t recall that there were so many tenses, forms and structures in the English Language when I was in grade school. I didn’t remember half of them. So after many hours and many days of staring at a computer screen, going through task after task and complaining about how unnecessary some of the lessons were, I finally completed it today.
Then fear crept in.
I am faced with the reality that I do not have a back up plan. Did I say that in the last post? What if the material is too much for me to handle? What if I don’t grasp the methods, instructions and material like everyone else? What if I don’t pass (bites fingernails and slide under cover) ?!
I’m not doing this? This…this what-if thing. It’s beginning to sound too much like The Dark, Dreaded Thoughts of ‘What If’. What I will do is relax as much as possible until the course begins on September 9th. I will go over some material to prepare myself as much as possible. Getting my health in order is a must. Along the way I will remind myself that I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.
I am more than a conqueror!
I will walk by faith and not by sight. I will pass this course and attain my teaching certification. What happens next is not something I will concern myself with at the moment. I will cross each bridge when I get to it. Who’s with me?
You keep the prayers coming (I believe in those), I will make sure my courage is growing and will update you a much as I can. Thank you for your support my creative people!
Until I post again…